Dealing with racing thoughts? It's also frightening to know that roughly half of the people who attempt suicide are clinically depressed. In this day and age, there are so many new treatments and so much hope for people coping with mental illness, but only if they can survive and receive treatment. Wishing for something doesn’t make it exist. I hid and suffered silently. Ruth, unlike you, when I am in the throes of deep, suicidal depression, NOTHING makes me laugh. Doctors should talk in terms of percent risk of death because people need to take that risk seriously. Mixed moods are known to increase the risk of suicide so I think the first way to manage the risk of suicide is to get those under control. Me to with the benzodiazepines. I hardly ever get a proper night’s sleep. “Feeling things so very deeply is both a blessing and a curse”. If you find yourself in a depression unexpectedly, get it treated as soon as possible for the best chance of recovery. Lithium is MY lifesaver when life becomes a question as to whether to or whether to not… I’ve also made attempts and I have stages in episodes of continual hourly suicidal ideation to which life literally becomes “every 15 minutes”, it kills physically, mentally and spiritually, and then you add in the pharmaceuticals that while they do help most (not all and some like myself are medication sensitive) they also have effects and adverse reactions that pose life threatening issues and/or life threatening. Once again another great post. Homelessness is not an option for me for I am on probably the worlds most evil drug, klonopin. I didnt like reading this article and yes , everything you stated in my opinion is on the money. During a mood swing, a person can think, say and do things they would never even contemplate when not ill. Your email address will not be published. Overall, I’d call them even. Still I do hope you will feel better always. Not just a a bipolar sufferer… I don’t have to sit there and let them choke me and rip the skin off my face. I haven’t had them all- and you’d think I be grateful. 5 Answers. But it’s necessary poison- we either take it and have a somewhat stable mind, or suffer staying up all night, sleeping all day, or reserving a room at the Bates Motel for a lifetime of delusional memories. Posted by Natasha Tracy | Nov 25, 2013 | Bipolar blog, bipolar disorder, mental illness issues, suicide | 49. It makes one more susceptible to illness, hardened arteries, increased cortisol production, and a slew of nasty problems. If you have a friend or family member with bipolar disorder, be alert for when they might go into a crisis and do not leave them alone. I have these feelings when in a forest listening to the wind blowing through the trees (as if speaking to me), looking up at the stars and moon, watching a sunrise or sunset, walking along a shoreline, being with my beloved animals. Even making a cuppa is like climbing Mt Everest. We were all born innocent with this beast on our backs but he has special plans for us but the last time I went to church I was asked for money becuase the dude cant balance his checkbook. In manic state, can one die of sleep deprivation or just exhaustion if it is long enough? Hi, my boyfriend is having an unbelievably hard time with us bipolar. To: Michael. But don’t worry, your hat will still fit . There is no right answer to that question. Intense passion and appreciation of art carries a high price tag. If you've been coping with bipolar disorder or depression, get help. I cannot even sit still for a few moments. If had money fro graduate school would be doing that, but I think we both know the fantasy of govt. Feel the felling. Not that I would take it anyway. My last 2 dies on me. Required fields are marked *. It is the only drug that has ever helped me. But , we are going through all this torture for a higher calling. A sense of profound well-being is craved by so many of us with bipolar disorder. 1 A bipolar manic episode with psychotic features can include paranoia, hallucinations, and delusions. 3 0. I am even able to talk to ex-gf without crying all the time. Being in a committed relationship with someone who has Bipolar Disorder can be a significant challenge if the affected person is not stabilized under an organized treatment plan. They dont care about us, they care about getting the children as clients for life. One serious option to consider is lithium as lithium is one of the few drugs we know that has been scientifically shown to have anti-suicidal properties (it’s been shown to reduce the risk of suicide and suicide attempts by 80%). There is nothing wrong and nothing shameful about admitting that a serious mental illness took the life of someone you love. Suicide Self-Assessment Scale – How Suicidal Are You? You are absolutely right, Natasha. Try Lamictal. I must be honest Michael. Sooner or later. Without treatment, bipolar disorder may cause unusual mood episodes. At least in my experience. Only half the people with mania have psychotic symptoms at some point in their lifetime. My heart goes to yours…. Good to hear from you. No cure and progressive. Answer Save. A lot of artists and scientists throughout history have been bipolar, I am sure. What pulls me through is my belief in reincarnation. People with bipolar disorder are at a risk of suicide 15 times greater than the general population. Not an expert though. Unless it is said in a shitty looking down on you way like you are moron who doesn’t see their fantasy God. Stupid judgmental idiots! Her daddy was bipolar and committed suicide when my cousin was young. In those with bipolar disorder, the risk of violent crime was mostly confined to patients with a history of substance abuse (aOR 6.4; 95% CI 5.1 to 8.1). She stepped in front of an oncoming freight train when in her 60’s. And asking God or whatever doesn’t make it exist and claiming it so and giving empty promises that it does and that things will change is dishones’t and only helpful to a fool or a child. I agree with Cameron as well, in that treatment for bipolar can cause serious “physical” conditions (high blood pressure – from antidepressants – and obesity – from antipsychotics – in my case.) A person with bipolar disorder can experience extreme shifts in mood and other symptoms. I used to lie in bed all day when I WAS ON THE MEDS, but I still have a serious fatigue problem and it’s frustrating that I can’t do as much as I would like to do because I am too tired. I feel I literally have no purpose in my life, many times. Importantly,I recently am understanding,moods will fluctuate even w the best meds… CANT SAY IT ENOUGH, ESPECIALLY FOR ME. It’s called hypomania, and though it can vary in intensity, it’s far less obvious than the mania in bipolar 1. I think ,for myself the severity of this illness recently really hit me.. None of the drugs worked. how we die is, in most respects, not up to us neither… less we choose to make it so, it’s how we live and relate… that truly matters, there are those with Bipolar who live right into their 80s and 90s… it’s not a given They seem to breeze through life compared to me but they never experience the emotions and visions that I do, but I pay a high price for them. If I say “fine, thank you”, then that’s ok, but if I feel really bad she hasn’t got time to listen anyway, so what’s the point! I am. Hang on, the lows pass – but they keep coming back. Lv 7. Maybe, in a way, they are like the “muggles” in Harry Potter, who don’t have the gift of magic! i get so mad when bipolar and schizophrenic “violence” is handled as just violence to others. Decisions must be made. & pain to end… You need to work out what works for you. Information presented in this article may be triggering to some people. 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